Your Prayers Please!

Jacob, Grandma Kay, Peyton, Benjamin and Micah April 5, 2010

The last few days have been emotionally exhausting. All last week I kept calling my grandma because the kids and I were going to go spend the day with her and I kept getting no answer. I began to worry. I knew that she is often outside and that she ocassional goes out, but I just thought there was no way that I just kept missing her. I finallt called my Aunt and she told me my grandma had gotten a bad flu and she brought her to her house. Well, the following day she took her to the dr because she was gettting worse and the dr sent her to the er. I went to see her in the er yesterday and she was unresponsive. Her flu had turned into pneumonia, then her white count sky rocketed and she has some kind of infection that spread throughout her body. They put her on iv antibiotics and her kidneys started to shut down. The moved her to the ICU last night. I was the only one there and had to give the ok to intubate her, ventilator and feeding tube. I didn't want to prolong the inevitable, but the dr told me that it could help her recover, I definately want that. I was an emotional wreck all day yesterday. I tried not to think about it today, I weeded the garden, exercised, went to lunch with my friend Donna, played the wii with Ben, made dinner, even Garlic bread for everyone else. Tyler got home right when dinner was ready and I headed out the door to go see my grandma at the hospital. I avoided calling my Aunt all day afraid of what I might hear I guess. I spend 45 minutes talking with my grandma. I decided that no matter her condition I was going to sit there and hold her hand and tell her all about everything going on. The snake loose in our house, me on level 3 of the 30 day shred, Peyton's "say Neigh louder mommy" antics, the denim quilt I'm working on, everything. I asked her to please squeeze my hand, she didn't, but she did move her hand higher up on my arm. I told her that I was a mess yesterday and that today I did my hair and wore makeup in case she could open her eyes and look at me. I said it would be nice if she could look at me since I went through all that trouble to get ready. She didn't open her eyes, but she did raise her eyebrows 3 times like she was trying to open her eyes. I told her it was ok, she could look at me later. They keep her lightly sedated while she is on life support, the tubes in her throat are very uncomfortable, but they occasionally let up on the sedation to see if she is at all responsive. When I first got there my Aunt, my cousins daughter and My Uncle Brent were there and told me her kidneys were working again! I left there feeling good, more optimistic than yesterday. I saw Sam Seamons as I was leaving and we walked out together and I told her about my grandma and she told me about her sis in law and the baby she just had. I cried a little when I got in my car, she's still most certainly not out of the woods yet, but I think I cried because for the first time I feel hopeful. My grandmother is a strong and fiesty woman, she can pull through this. Please send some prayers up on her behalf, I know that works too! I have a great pic of her from a few weeks ago when she took us all out to breakfast. I'm going to go upload it from my camera so you can see who you're praying for. If you're still reading, thanks so much for taking the time to help me out!